My Rebirth

Rebirth: “Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point. We asked His protection and care with complete abandon.” (BB, pg.59) Did you read the Daily Reflections today. If you didn’t, click here. (Reminder, I also have the link in the sidebar.) WOW, what a God shot! A year ago, I set outContinue reading “My Rebirth”

Skeletons 2.11 – My Remorse

**Disclaimer: This is an unusual recovery blog. I am presently in the “what happened” portion of my story, which focuses primarily on my drinking and recovery in the past. Whether this is your first time here or you are a returning reader, I encourage you to visit my About page before reading further.** Remorse (past)Continue reading “Skeletons 2.11 – My Remorse”

I’m a Yeller :(

I will never forget the first time I yelled at A1. A2 was a newbie, less than 3 months old and A1 was 2 ½. Us 3 girls were home doing laundry up in the small hallway of our townhouse while H was at work. I was still using a gate at the top ofContinue reading “I’m a Yeller :(“

Skeletons Part 2.12 – My Recovery Relaxed

Relaxed (past) – “Don’t quit before the miracle happens.” – phrase used in AA. I distinctly remember the first time I decided I wasn’t going to go to meetings for a while and didn’t know if I was going to come back after I gave birth..  I was VERY pregnant, sitting in a meeting withContinue reading “Skeletons Part 2.12 – My Recovery Relaxed”

My Relapse – Part 3

Relapse #3: I don’t remember what I had but I want to say it was another ½ mini-box of wine? Or maybe 2 mini bottles from a 4 pack? Weird I don’t know specifics because this was the least I had drank of all the relapses since my DUI.  Hubs came home earlier than expected.Continue reading “My Relapse – Part 3”

My Relapse – Part 2

Relapse #2: I decided I’d do one final “test.” It’s a common test we lushes like to take and it’s rather quite simple for normal drinkers to do: have just ONE drink and that be all. Since I had a suspended license, I walked up to the liquor store and bought 2 of those mini fridgeContinue reading “My Relapse – Part 2”

Skeletons 2.9 – The Relapse Series – Part 1

Relapse (past): The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death. (BB, Chapter 3, pg. 30) Here’s the bottom line: I don’t remember my very first sobrietyContinue reading “Skeletons 2.9 – The Relapse Series – Part 1”

Skeletons 2.8 – My Recovery Requisite

Requisite (Past): The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop drinking (Tradition 3, BB, pg 139) After my second DUI, I was told 2 things: I had to stop drinking and I had to wait 6 months (or a year) to resume efforts to get pregnant. I wasn’t asked. I was told. NoContinue reading “Skeletons 2.8 – My Recovery Requisite”

My Reprimands – Part 4

I wrote some amends letters after my reprimands of SD2 and the last one was to myself (second person to first person,) and I ended it with this: “Is that all? You done now?  Because I can think of some messed up stuff you did to other guys too, or have you forgotten?  I hopeContinue reading “My Reprimands – Part 4”

My Reprimands – Part 3

Reprimand for Misdemeanor #2 – 2012:  My sentencing required a lot from me over the course of the next 18 months and, as previously mentioned, one of those things was spending 2 weekends on lock down. I find it hard to hold back telling you everything about this experience so here’s a sub-list of theContinue reading “My Reprimands – Part 3”